shadowcaster03

i often wounder why i even try at all
and not just give up and cease to exist
there is no fun in life, no love, no meaning
life to me is meaningless and pointless
its a stark reality but oh so true
only the cuts and bleeding brings happiness
only the pain releases the mind
i now know why the caged bird cries
why the free birds bleed
both wishing it was where the other was
i have lived once before
and i have also died once before
i wounder which part returned with me

last night i got shot , all cause i left my wallet at home  >well heres how it went. gimme yo money or i shot yo ass- wll i don't have my wallet on me *slowly had knife out for just in case - he couldn't see it * as he aimed the gun at my head i slapped the gun - and it went off obiviously and i cut him and ran like a mo-fo. diddn't bother to check anything for a bit as i was to busy running away then i checked and it was my hand that just so happened to be bleeding a lot . and thats that . yup

tomorrow / nov the 8th sun. is my B day  woo. a quarter century

today my dog died. i came home from work to find my dog died. she was everything to me and now she's gone. this is my most saddest day in my life. R.I.P brandy you are deeply missed

-.- my B day is tomorrow nov the 8th.
-.- why do i even bother doing journa;s anywhere 90% of the time they won't be read, or nobodo cares. i have freinds but they are poser freinds so i have 0. but my B day is tomorrow nov the 8th. just another day to me -.-